…we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. – 1John 1:8
Let not him that is deceived trust in vanity: for vanity shall be his recompence. – Job 15:31
Awakened sinners often say, “If I could feel my heart was right towards God, then I could believe that He would look upon me in mercy.” How wrong is this! If you did feel that all was right, it would be an untruthful feeling, for by nature all is wrong. “Oh, sir,” say you, “if I could but feel that now at last, I am as I ought to be before God, as tender and as penitent as He would have me to be, then I could have hope.” No, but my dear friend, such a feeling would not be according to truth, for no man is as tender and as penitent as he ought to be; and if you felt you were, you would be feeling a falsehood, and so the truth would not be in you. I do not want you to feel that you are what you ought to be: I pray that you may own that you are not what you ought to be; I would have you feel unrest, and absence of anything like satisfaction, for such feelings will be according to the truth. I beseech you never claim to experience feelings which you do not feel, nor make hypocritical confessions of sin which you have never committed, nor pretend to a repentance which is not in you, for the Lord hates all shams, and will only deal with you according to truth. If you are conscious of impenitence, go to the Lord and tell Him you have a hard heart, which will not feel either the terrors of His law or the meltings of His love: in fine, go to Him just as you are, and confess what you are, and ask Him to deal with you in Christ Jesus as He sees you to be. That is the only way, and the plan of pretending that we are now free from sin will not work and bring us blessing; for “we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us.”