In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of His grace… – Ephesians 1:7

There are some who, like Lydia, have their hearts opened not by the crowbar of conviction, but by the pick-lock of divine grace. Sweetly drawn, almost silently enchanted by the loveliness of Jesus, they say, “Draw me, and I will run after Thee.”
And now you ask me the question-“Why has God brought me to Himself in this gentle manner? “Again I say-there are some questions better unanswered than answered. God knows best the reason why He does not give you these terrors; leave that question with Him. But I may tell you an anecdote. There was a man once who had never felt these terrors and he thought within himself-“I never can believe I am a Christian unless I do.” so he prayed to God that he might feel them, and he did feel them, and what do you think is his testimony? He says, “Never, never do that, for the result was fearful in the extreme.” If he had but known what he was asking for, he would not have asked for anything so foolish. I knew a Christian man once who prayed for trouble. He was afraid he was not a Christian, because he had no trouble; but when the trouble came, he soon discovered how foolish he was to be asking for a thing which God in mercy had kept back from him. O be not foolish enough to sigh for misery. Thank God that you go to heaven along the walls of salvation; bless the Master that He does not call you in the cloudy and dark day, but brings you gently to Himself; and be content, I pray you, to be called by the music of the voice of love. ~ C.H. Spurgeon

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