And when I saw Him, I fell at His feet as dead. And He laid His right hand upon me, saying unto me, Fear not; I am the first and the last: I am He that liveth, and was dead; and behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen – Revelation 1:17,18 

I beg you to notice with care this beloved disciple in his fainting fit, and note first, the occasion of it. He says, “I saw Him.” This it was that made him faint with fear. “I saw HIM.” He had seen (Jesus) on earth, but not in His full glory as the first begotten from the dead, and the prince of the kings of the earth. When our Savior dwelt among men, in order to their redemption, He made Himself of no reputation and took upon Himself the form of a servant; for this reason, He restrained the flashings of His Deity, and the godhead shone through the manhood with occasional and softened rays. But now, Jesus was resplendent as the ancient of days, girt with a golden girdle, with a countenance outshining the sun in its strength, and this even the best beloved apostle could not endure. He could gaze with dauntless eye upon the throne of jasper and the rainbow of emerald, he could view with rapture the sea of glass like unto crystal, and the seven lamps of fire burning before the throne, but the vision of the Lord Himself was too much for him. He who quailed not when the doors of both heaven and hell were opened to him in vision yet fell lifeless when he saw the Lord. None either in earth or heaven can compare with Jesus in glory. Oh, for the day when we shall gaze upon His glory and partake in it. Such is His sacred will concerning us. “Father, I will that they also whom Thou hast given Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory.” To bear that sight we shall need to be purified and strengthened. God Himself must enlarge and strengthen our faculties, for as yet, like the disciples upon Tabor, we should be bewildered by the brightness…How shall an insect live in the furnace of the sun? How can mortal eye behold unquenched the light of Deity, or mortal ear hear that voice which is as many waters? …The most spiritual and sanctified minds, when they fully perceive the majesty and holiness of God, are so greatly conscious of the great disproportion between themselves and the Lord, that they are humbled and filled with holy awe, and even with dread and alarm.  ~ C.H. Spurgeon

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