For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? – Mark 8:36

When an American doctor, who had led a loose life, came to die, he seemed to wake up from a sort of stupor, and he said, “Find that word, find that word.” “What word?” they asked. “Why,” he said, “that awful word, remorse!” He said it again,-” Remorse!” and then, gathering up his full strength, he fairly seemed to shriek it out,-“Remorse!” “Write it,” said he, “write it.” It was written. “Write it with larger letters, and let me gaze at it; underline it. And now,” said he, “none of you know the meaning of that word, and may you never know it; it has an awful meaning in it, and I feel it now. Remorse! Remorse!! Remorse!!!”

What, I ask, is the pleasure of sin contrasted with the results it brings in this life? and what, I ask, is this pleasure’ compared with the joys of godliness? Little as you may think I know of the joys of the world, yet so far as I can form a judgment, I can say that I would not take all the joys that earth can ever afford in a hundred years for one half-hour of what my soul has known in fellowship with Christ. We, who believe in Him, do have our sorrows; but, blessed be God, we do have our joys, and they are such joys -oh, such joys, with such substance in them, and such reality and certainty, that we could not and would not exchange them for anything except heaven in its fruition. ~ C.H. Spurgeon

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